Wednesday, January 15, 2014
So as some of you might know, I'm an amateur writer of transgender erotica. When I first started writing seriously about six months ago my mind was filled with all the pretty, feminine items I'd be able to buy now that I could afford them - but of course, things didn't go quite as planned. But the bills are paid and savings is saved, and now it's time to indulge my less practical hobbies. :3
On Sunday I finally ordered a pair of breast forms (shout out to Glamour Boutique!), and I have to say I couldn't be happier. They arrived about twelve hours ago and there's been maybe... three, four hours where I wasn't wearing them? Just picking them up sent a chill down my spine. They were heavier than I expected (appropriate for a 44D), and somehow that made them even better - feeling them tug on the straps and sway as I moved was sensational. I was hesitant at first, but I'll definitely be picking up some adhesive so I can get the full experience. Being able to look down and say 'those are my breasts' is a fantastic feeling, and one that I get reminded of every time my arm brushed against my new assets.
It's a strange thing, confidence. The last time I dressed up was for halloween 2012, and gathering the courage for that apparently tapped me out for the better part of the year. Which was understandable, as I had basically just outed myself to everyone I knew, but lately I've been regressing and the doubts are creeping back in. After so much work to become comfortable with my fetish, I was going right back to being ashamed - even more so now for being so open and 'weird' about it.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, don't be ashamed of the things that make you happy. So many people (myself included) indulge their tg kink with captions and stories and often feel miserable afterward - but what good does that do? Embrace your inner beauty and let it shine out - you'll be much happier for it.
That's all for now, just wanted to put these thoughts into words. I'll try to follow my own advice, and I hope it ends up meaning something to you. Until next time~